Being sad is not my habit.

Being sad is not my habit,

I am sad because I have reasons,

Reasons behind my past or present.

Present is a reflection of past.

Yeah! I know that.

I know it's just a reflection and not the reality.

But, the reality is, I am sad.

I am sad.

I am very sad.

But, being sad is not my habit.

Yeah! I swear, it's not my habit.

I am sad.

I am very sad.

But, being sad is not my habit.

My past hunts me a lot,

My breakup hurts me,

It pains inside.

It breaks me into pieces, every time.

I cry many a times,

I cry out loud, inside not out.

Yes! Inside.

I shiver, I sob, all alone.

But, You know what ?

I can't cry out load as they will judge me,

question me, walk away, or just not talk to me.

They don't know how hard it hurts,

It hurts, badly, very badly.

I swear, my tears roll down my face.

and I have none to share.

As they will judge me,

question me, walk away, or just not talk to me.

I ask myself, when will I move on ?

My friend said, its a process.

I will have to go through this.

I will have to.

But you know what ?

It's not easy for me to go through this process.

It's not easy at all.

I know it's just a reflection and not the reality.

But, the reality is, I am sad.

I am sad.

I am very sad.

But, being sad is not my habit.

Yeah! I swear, it's not my habit.

I am sad.

I am very sad.

But, being sad is not my habit.

- Ankita Halder