Miss you

The kiss and tell over calls is missed. I miss talking for hours to you while saute. I know how bad was the day when you say me to study first and talk less. You were my weakness, my disattraction . I had been stained in your sexuality and questioning mine. You were the turning point making me believe in love. Today I love all but people think my care has a purpose but you raised me pure and said me to love until you breathe. So I breathe love. I miss your presence in my life, when I read your letters I find your smiling face that has the happiness to write about me. I know, I have been harsh on you . I am a sin to your holy love. I killed you . And I don't know what correct word will express my sorry to you. I don't talk to you now with fear and my ruthless behaviour. I stop myself from seeing you and picture and tell you that I miss you. I somehow meet your face but never talk to you because I have lost all the courage which you gifted me. I crushed your capabilities into nothingness. With the blink of an eye I wakeup to this frozen world that I chose. I miss your love in the cold people . I miss your every detailed praise and admiration. The songs which you dedicated to me reminds me of my worth everytime when I am at my worst. It was not your fault. I showed you the stars that never existed. I showed you the sky tjat ended soon. My farewell has hurt me the most much than it moved you.

I don't anything. I don't know how to talk to you.

But I miss you with tears in my eyes. I miss you with every breathe. I miss you at my highs and lows. I miss you that way you miss me.