"The Enemy who resides in me"

I wonder.... As how the smiling face turns into sudden grimace As how the thoughts brimming with positivity turns into a blur image! I wonder.... As how the self-confidence that was hardly built breaks down completely As how the spirit of not giving up dies eventually!! I wonder.... As how the will power to stay strong, the patience and tolerance vanishes away As how holding back the tears doesn't work at all, anyway! This how an enemy works,right? And let me tell you all one more thing.... This is how "the enemy who resides in me" works!!! I don't think anyone else could harm me more than to the extent I can harm myself! And so I am afraid of the enemy who resides in me.... I am afraid of myself!!! ~ Kaynat Sultana Qureshi